free spirits no more?

have always considered myself as one happy-go-lucky soul, and nothing can actually get me down... somehow, things over the last couple of weeks are beginning to spill over, and as a result, i am feeling so demotivated now...

(i) my thesis project is starting to look like **** now... it's not a matter of me not putting in the efforts to keep it going, but everything seems to be out of my control... whatever i do, i still have to wait and depend on others for approval before i can go onto the next step... if spending more time in the project room and working my ass off can help, i would have done that...

(ii) internship was supposed to start on 1st april... maybe this is my fault, i should have started sourcing for accommodation earlier, but i was waiting for the reply of the company... excuses excuses...

(iii) messed up the one opportunity that will enable me to embark on my future career... don't know why, but it feels exactly the same as that time when i failed to secure the one job which i would die for in 2005...

shucks... omans, am i really that vulnerable? even that personality test "sensed" that i am currently frustrated with my studies at the moment...